Al and I were talking a bit more now but, things were still VERY causal. He was PROBABLY still holding a grudge with me because I turned him down and told him I didn't like him. Do you blame him? And I still could not accept the fact that I was maybe slightly interested in him. I kept telling myself I just wanted to be friends.
My friends and I spent the morning mingling, signing year books, and talking about Summer. But I was constantly distracted by always keeping an eye out for Al. Where was he?! What if I don't get to see him today?! Finally, people started leaving. I was getting depressed :( I didn't want to leave! I wanted to see Alek! My friend FINALLY convinced me into texting him. I REALLY hate being the one to send the first text. Guess I'm old school like that. Plus! I had been texting him first A LOT lately because well... I broke his heart and he didn't ever want to text me. But I caved, and tried to send him a nonchalant, casual, "Hey, watcha doin?" text. He responded with a very short text. "In Gym. Playing basketball."
So, he IS here! I got all excited with butterflies. Then, I felt all weird because of course, he was being short with me. Ugh. My friend tried to talk me into going and finding him but, I didn't want to look desperate! Was anyone else like this?? Seriously, we made things so difficult! Instead I just replied, with asking him what his plans were that day. Hoping that we could get together and do something fun! It was taking him FOREVER to text me back. Rachel and I sat down in the hallway trying to decide what to do. Most everyone that was there signing year books had left. Wow, did I feel cool? Here I was sitting in the hallway of my empty high school on the first day of Summer. Finally, Al replied and said that him and his friends were going boating at Hyrum Dam.
"That sounds like SO much fun!!" I replied. I tried to hint that I wanted to go too and was hoping for an invite. One thing I have learned since then is that hinting NEVER EVER works on men. They don't/won't ever pick up on it. But, since I didn't know that back then, I just figured he didn't want me to go with him because he never invited me to go. :( I was pretty sad!
So, what did Rachel and I do?? We went and sat on the beach of Hyrum Dam and watch all the boats drive passed, wondering which one Al might be on. Yep. Pathetic right? Starting our summer out with a real bang...
A few days later, summer had arrived and so had all the "out of school" parties. I was over at a friends house with a big group of people and all of a sudden I received a text message from Al! I was shocked!
"Hey, Jeremy and I are bored. Wanna come hang out with us?"
I felt bad ditching out on the party but was very excited that Alek actually was putting forth effort to hang out again. I couldn't say no! Within 15 minutes, he had drove to the house where the party was at and was picking me up.
It was a pretty chill night! All we did was just drive around, talking, and listening to music. The two boys, of course, had a good time being goofy and making me laugh. Even though we didn't do anything extravagant, I still had a blast! Hmmm.. there was something intriguing about this boy that maybe I missed at first!
The next night, I was planning on going to another party. I somehow felt very brave and decided to invite Al to come with me! We had a great time! Him and I just hung out the whole time by ourselves. We were surrounded by tons of other people. But, as cheesy as this sounds, it could have been just us 2 there and I wouldn't have noticed the difference! We talked by the fire, roasted marshmallows, and played on the swing set. Then, Al had this idea to climb this tree that was in the back yard. Even though I was in flip flops, I thought it sounded like a fun idea.
By this time the sun had gone down and the only light was from the fire and the movie that most people were watching. Alek gave me a boost to the first branch and we started climbing. At first things stayed pretty casual, about how they had been the whole night. We were just talking and climbing this tree. Then... I started noticing something. We started making eye contact more often and He seemed to be matching my eye level where ever I went. If I went a branch higher, so would he. If I went back down, so would he! Then, He would hold my gaze smiling, before I would awkwardly hurry and look away to find another branch to climb. This went on for awhile!
He wants to kiss me!!!!! I started getting nervous and my hands started sweating. I wasn't sure I was ready... Did I want to kiss him? I still wasn't sure I liked him in that kind of way! I LOVED hanging out with him. He was great and hilarious and easy to talk to... but.... ahhhh! I was freaking out on the inside.
I wasn't ready. I guess I still needed more time. After awkwardly playing this chasing, eye-gazing game for awhile (Alek was pretty stubborn, and wasn't taking the hint) (Remember what I said about hints?) I decided enough was enough. I jumped out of the tree and suggested we go back to the swings.
As Alek jumped out of the tree to follow me, we ran into the dad of the girl's house we were at.
"You guys find a nice spot to make out?"
I was soooo embarrassed!! Was this guy serious? Ya, sure it MIGHT have looked like that but, to make such a quick assumption.
"Uh... no sir, we were just climbing the tree," stammered Alek.
"Is that what they call it now days?" the dad said as he walked away. I was speechless. Alek just busted up laughing, which made me laugh. The awkwardness lighten and things went back to the chill, casual way they were before.
A couple days later, Alek had a party up at his house! A lot of people were there, but once again, it was like it was just Alek and I at the party. We got along so good. Talking and being around him was so much fun!
There was one point where Al and I were jumping on the tramp with a few other friends. It was pretty late by this point and started to get a bit cold. Someone suggested we go grab blankets and watch for shooting stars. I started getting nervous.....blankets could only mean one thing... CUDDLING! Sure enough within a few minutes there was a big pile of blankets on the tramp and people started pairing off and getting comfortable. Al, came a sat down next to me and threw a blanket over both of us. I was hugging my knees up close to my chest. My hands were sweating and I was SOO paranoid he was going to grab my hand, so I kept trying to secretly wipe them off on my pants.
We definitely stuck out among the other couples because everyone else was laying down looking up at the stars and here we were sitting up and I, squeezing the feeling out of my legs. At one point he did put his arm around me and pulled me a bit closer. My heart was racing! Eventually I calmed down, relaxed a little bit and laid my head on his shoulder. It was nice! Man, maybe I did like this boy a little more than I was making myself believe. It was so nice to sit there and look at the pretty view of cache valley and all the stars and snuggle with Al. I wish I could remember all the stuff we talked about!
After a little bit, He turned and looked me in the eyes and said, "Can I ask you a question?"
Oh boy. He is going to ask me to kiss him. I thought to myself.
"Can I take you on a date tomorrow night? Lately we have just been hanging out at all these parties and I really want to take you on a official date again."
Aww! I thought it was the sweetest thing! It's a good thing it was dark because there's a good chance I blushed. I agreed and snuggled a bit closer to him.
After a little longer, it was time for me to get going, so I could make it home by curfew. He gave me a hug and told me he would see me tomorrow. Ah the butterflies! I was so twitterpated the whole way home and could hardly sleep that night! Maybe this Summer is going to turn out good after all! :)
Stay tuned for the next post about our date! Its possible it will include the first kiss!
P.S. Unfortunately we never took pics until after we started dating, so all these pics are from our senior year. Just figured I add some older pictures to break up the blog post a bit. I have a hard time reading blogs when there are no pictures!! :)
The next night, I was planning on going to another party. I somehow felt very brave and decided to invite Al to come with me! We had a great time! Him and I just hung out the whole time by ourselves. We were surrounded by tons of other people. But, as cheesy as this sounds, it could have been just us 2 there and I wouldn't have noticed the difference! We talked by the fire, roasted marshmallows, and played on the swing set. Then, Al had this idea to climb this tree that was in the back yard. Even though I was in flip flops, I thought it sounded like a fun idea.
By this time the sun had gone down and the only light was from the fire and the movie that most people were watching. Alek gave me a boost to the first branch and we started climbing. At first things stayed pretty casual, about how they had been the whole night. We were just talking and climbing this tree. Then... I started noticing something. We started making eye contact more often and He seemed to be matching my eye level where ever I went. If I went a branch higher, so would he. If I went back down, so would he! Then, He would hold my gaze smiling, before I would awkwardly hurry and look away to find another branch to climb. This went on for awhile!
He wants to kiss me!!!!! I started getting nervous and my hands started sweating. I wasn't sure I was ready... Did I want to kiss him? I still wasn't sure I liked him in that kind of way! I LOVED hanging out with him. He was great and hilarious and easy to talk to... but.... ahhhh! I was freaking out on the inside.
I wasn't ready. I guess I still needed more time. After awkwardly playing this chasing, eye-gazing game for awhile (Alek was pretty stubborn, and wasn't taking the hint) (Remember what I said about hints?) I decided enough was enough. I jumped out of the tree and suggested we go back to the swings.
As Alek jumped out of the tree to follow me, we ran into the dad of the girl's house we were at.
"You guys find a nice spot to make out?"
I was soooo embarrassed!! Was this guy serious? Ya, sure it MIGHT have looked like that but, to make such a quick assumption.
"Uh... no sir, we were just climbing the tree," stammered Alek.
"Is that what they call it now days?" the dad said as he walked away. I was speechless. Alek just busted up laughing, which made me laugh. The awkwardness lighten and things went back to the chill, casual way they were before.
A couple days later, Alek had a party up at his house! A lot of people were there, but once again, it was like it was just Alek and I at the party. We got along so good. Talking and being around him was so much fun!
There was one point where Al and I were jumping on the tramp with a few other friends. It was pretty late by this point and started to get a bit cold. Someone suggested we go grab blankets and watch for shooting stars. I started getting nervous.....blankets could only mean one thing... CUDDLING! Sure enough within a few minutes there was a big pile of blankets on the tramp and people started pairing off and getting comfortable. Al, came a sat down next to me and threw a blanket over both of us. I was hugging my knees up close to my chest. My hands were sweating and I was SOO paranoid he was going to grab my hand, so I kept trying to secretly wipe them off on my pants.
We definitely stuck out among the other couples because everyone else was laying down looking up at the stars and here we were sitting up and I, squeezing the feeling out of my legs. At one point he did put his arm around me and pulled me a bit closer. My heart was racing! Eventually I calmed down, relaxed a little bit and laid my head on his shoulder. It was nice! Man, maybe I did like this boy a little more than I was making myself believe. It was so nice to sit there and look at the pretty view of cache valley and all the stars and snuggle with Al. I wish I could remember all the stuff we talked about!
After a little bit, He turned and looked me in the eyes and said, "Can I ask you a question?"
Oh boy. He is going to ask me to kiss him. I thought to myself.
"Can I take you on a date tomorrow night? Lately we have just been hanging out at all these parties and I really want to take you on a official date again."
Aww! I thought it was the sweetest thing! It's a good thing it was dark because there's a good chance I blushed. I agreed and snuggled a bit closer to him.
After a little longer, it was time for me to get going, so I could make it home by curfew. He gave me a hug and told me he would see me tomorrow. Ah the butterflies! I was so twitterpated the whole way home and could hardly sleep that night! Maybe this Summer is going to turn out good after all! :)
Stay tuned for the next post about our date! Its possible it will include the first kiss!
P.S. Unfortunately we never took pics until after we started dating, so all these pics are from our senior year. Just figured I add some older pictures to break up the blog post a bit. I have a hard time reading blogs when there are no pictures!! :)
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